|Posted by mamato2 on April 2, 2011 at 8:41 AM|
I feel like I am dreaming! I lost 7.4 pounds yesterday and made it to goal! I wanted to write this yesterday but I couldn't even get my mind to slow down and stay put long enough. I am so excited! I am also scared though.
People just love to tell me, well this is where the hard part starts. I am aware of this. I know they are right. I know my chances of keeping this weight off are so very, very small. I know like 98% people gain their weight back. I know this starts the rest of my life with no rewards or applause but the same tracking and weigh ins. I know! I wonder what people want me to say when they say this. Oh, this isn't going to be easy? Might as well gain it back and get it over with.
I have a few thoughts on this. First of all, I know I may regain this. I live in fear of it. That just means I should enjoy getting to goal while I still can right? Second, it has taken me well over two years to get here. That means I do have slightly more practice than a normal person dieting and all I can do is hope this helps me be more prepared for the years to come. Third, this is why I picked my goal weight I picked. I didn't pick one that most women would be excited about. I still don't have a great body and never will. I do however feel this is a weight that may help me be able to keep it here. I can still eat and not have to exercise a ton, yet the doctor is happy with it. Hopefully that will help.
Well, I thought this would be a real positive post, but I guess my fears are showing. I signed into my computer to change my weight and it said you don't want to lose any more weight and added 6 more points to my daily allowance. That is hard to wrap my mind around. It is really scary.
So that is where I am right now. Scared/excited. That sums it all up. We are going to celebrate at my meeting this Friday so Dan and Dani can be there. I am bringing my before pic and my big jeans. It will be fun!
I need to get to the rec. I can't think I can stop that now, lol. Drats!