|Posted by mamato2 on January 30, 2011 at 8:56 AM|
Two years ago today I walked through the doors at Weight Watchers, faced the scale for the first time in years and began this daunting journey. I didn't hold out any more hope that this would be the time than any other time. I never really thought I could do it, I just thought it was time to put forth some effort in saying I tried.
When I had done weight watchers before I stuck it out till I lost about 30 each time. Then two things would happen. Life would happen, and I would mess up. Second, I would panic. I can't do this, it's too hard, there is too much to learn, it takes too much time, I have too far to go, etc. etc. I would just see how hopeless it was, and decide even if it wasn't hopeless it was not worth the price tag that came with it. End of trying.
This time was somehow different. I didn't feel the got to hurry up and do this I usually did. I set off at a nice slow pace. I decided ahead of time that I would eat every point I was given. I would use my extra weekly ones and I would trade it for slower losses each week just to make it livable. I decided I would not start in on rigorous gym routines that I would tire out of. I wouldn't allow myself to start anything that I didn't intend to do for the rest of my life at that level.
I think the biggest difference this time is grasping the fact of picking myself up and dusting myself off and starting again. Like the verse, treating each morning as a new start. Whether it is a evening binge or a couple week stumble, get up and get back on. I have had quiet a few of those this journey. Some have really set me back and some really took a long time to recover from. I would feel so sad and disappointed in myself. I would just want to tell myself I knew I would not be able to do this. But looking back I guess it all worked out ok. I have learned and hopefully tucked away some valuable tools to help me the next time it happens, which I am sure it will.
Anyway, I just wanted to take a moment and reflect. God is good and He is my strength. I thank Him for these two years of learning and pray I trust Him for many more.