|Posted by mamato2 on July 20, 2012 at 10:05 PM|
It has been some rough months weight wise. I would gain ten pounds, get 7 or 8 off, then gain 12 just to lose 5. Up and down till finally I got so sad it was only up, up and up.
I have felt so ashamed and embarrassed. I know I am not the first person to gain their weight back. I never went into this thinking, nope, not me. Never going to gain mine back. I am a realist. I knew I would probably be in this spot someday. I have friends and family with a lot less to keep off that told me it would be a struggle and believed them. All I had to hope with was that it took me so long to lose that maybe I had made some of the habits permanent.
I see from the number on the scale that I did not make many of them permanent. However, I did make some of them life changes, and I am proud of those. I still like to make healthy meals. I don't bring a lot of junk into the house. These have helped. It is the binges and emotional eating that battle and lose to. I think it is safe to say I will always battle these.
However, I stopped it before I had it all back on AND I am NOT giving up. I went back to my meetings, and I am trying my hardest. Now I may keep gaining and gain it all back. I have no idea, but I will keep trying this time. Time till tell, but I feel hopeful. I will post back soon.